365 fail.....

So it is mid April and I failed the project 365....life got too chaotic this month...and I am behind I only made it 11 days in.....and I do not feel like playing catch up.   My husband has been gone since April 7th....and I will not see him again til May 3rd....so life is quite busy taking care of the kiddos and the house and all the animals alone....My mom came for 5 days and helped out around here with building the duck hut and gutting our master bathroom....but she is home now...and I am left alone again....cept for the kids of course!  And I have 2 extra kids today, tomorrow and Saturday :/  I think I will have completely lost my mind by Saturday!!!

MSA April Template Challenge

So over at MSA ( http://www.myscrapbookart.com/blog/ ) they are doing a Template Challenge and I decided that I would participate this go around!  and here is my creation!

you can find details to this challenge here http://www.myscrapbookart.com/blog/?p=2299

credits:

Natali Designs-Spring 2013, Easter, Be Free 

Kimla Designs-Toffe Latte

Palvinka-Tiptoe through Spring

Easter Days

Just a quick layout using  NLD Spring Bunnies

credits:

NLD Spring Bunnies and Easter Stories

Getting back into....

My digital scrapping!!

I already got a GSO!  woohoo for this LO

http://www.digishoptalk.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=1752777&title=playing-in-the-sand&cat=500

http://www.digishoptalk.com/boards/showthread.php?p=3320700#post3320700

Laundry

So I just read this amazing blog post about laundry....I will share the link with you as well (whoever happens to be reading this anyways)  but this is my laundry story
My 12 year old will wash dry and put away her own clothes damn skippy she does!   The other two 10 and 5....they will put their own clothes away but I will wash and dry simply because they are just too damn short to reach INTO the wash machine haha...they'd fall in and I do not need that or they block the way with a chair..which happens to have a small bathroom and the back door right there and then the chair blocks the way for that...sigh....ohh well one day the 10 year old will get tall enough.  Anyways do your children do their own laundry?  What age did you start making them do that??  What about your husband?  My husband tried and failed at laundry...it was bad...and I mean all the white turned red bad....yeah that was the last time I let him near the wash machine....I really do not need to replace the whites every time he tries to do laundry.  And for that matter I have banned him from the dishwasher for a time too, he put LIQUID DAWN dish soap into it....yes soapy soapy mess.   That was horrible, he is lucky I was not home at the time and did not return til he had it cleaned up, I have since taught him how to properly use the dishwasher and what soap to use and what soap NOT to use.  


anyways here is that blog link to some fabulousness
http://www.chicagonow.com/moms-who-drink-and-swear/2013/02/laundry-the-itch-i-want-to-teach-my-children-to-scratch/

We have hit that stage....

You know the one that your little girl is all grown up?   Yeah that one.  She is 12....my baby....she has a "boyfriend" I asked her what that means to her...she said, someone you like, someone who is smart and funny and who she likes to hang out with and talk to.   Ohh and he plays hockey, apparently to her that is a bonus LOL.   I am still trying to wrap my head around this one though, when did my daughter get old enough to really like boys?   This.is.not.cool.  Not that I am discouraging her, I do not want that, I want her to be open and honest with me about things and feel comfortable talking to me about boys, and *gasp* other things like KISSING BOYS....she has not yet done that, thank goodness.....and yes I believe her when she said she hasn't, kinda hints at her not lying when the first thing that comes out of her mouth is "eww that is gross, kissing a boy" haha at least I still have that for a little while longer!  I am not sure how long that one will last though...our next talk will be about sex,  UGH!  We have talked about it a little bit....but I think its about time to dive right on in....le sigh.....I am too young for this!

Let it snow let it snow...

let it snow?  Ohh and snow it did!!  I was really getting used to this really mild, very little snow winter...knew it had to come to an end sooner or later....We got dumped on last night....about 4-6 inches...some places is deeper than others with the drifts.   Ohh joy...how I do not love snow....at least it is pretty to look at....not so pretty spending 2 hours shoveling...but that was my own decision...figured that is how I would do my work out today...2 hours of snow shoveling is like 8 hours on the elliptical!  I'll take it!!

I love living out here.....

in the middle of no where.  It is so quiet and peaceful.  Me and my dog Cali took a walk today, 40 mins.  and it was just gorgeous out.  We ended up down by the lake...it was so pretty to see it all frozen over!

Ear Infections.....

I do not have much experience with these.....even with 3 kids....Raianna has had one...when she was probably 5 or 6 months old....never had one since....Elyse had her very first (double ear infection at that) just a couple of years ago.  I think that was due to swimming and water got trapped in her ears.   Helena has never had one before....until maybe now?  She woke us up at 4:30am screaming bloody murder that her ear hurt...so I took her to my room and held her and gave her tylenol where after about 15mins she calmed down, tylenol kicked in I guess....and she fell asleep and is still fast asleep in my bed.  I will call the dr at 8am and see if I can get her in to get checked out.  Poor little Miss.

I think people...

Forget how lonely it can be to be a stay at home mom.  Imagine yourself.....home alone, doing the same things day in and day out....all the kids are at school, everyone you know either is working or has something else to do, having little kids at home to keep them busy or other friends they spend their time with. (Not that I know too many people to hang out with around here.) Then there is you, sitting home wondering what happened.   Wondering if being home anymore is worth it.  For me, I feel like I haven't another choice.  With the dogs and the goats and the chickens, and the animals we plan to get in the future.  On top of cooking and cleaning and laundry and making sure the kids get up for school, and get their homework done, and not having to worry about scrambling your way out of work to go get your kid from school if they happen to get sick.  For me going back to work would just put added stress onto my shoulders, seeing as I do at least 80% if not more of the work around the house.  Not by choice, but out of necessity,  with a husband who has physical limitations on what he can and cannot do, the brunt work falls to me.  Him and the kids help as much as they can, but between his work and their school and budding social lives, it all gets a little hectic for me.  I do not think my sanity could hold out long if I added a job to the mix, having to do that and come home and still do 80% or more of the household stuff, trying to plan that out around their schedules to boot. It gets lonely though, and depressing, feeling unappreciated most days.  It gets to me sometimes and I loose my cool, I get so wound tight that it comes off in a ball of fury, lashing out and everyone and anything!  Saying things I regret and really do not mean, but having so much pent up stress and tension it just flows out like verbal diarrhea.  I wish I had a better outlet, something to drown out the mundane life of a stay at home mom.

A couple new siggies I have made

I have made a few siggies recently of my girls.

A New Year

A not so new me?    Still the same person I was last year, don't think that is every going to change.  I do not make resolutions, because to me it is just setting yourself up for failure.  There are things that I do want to do, like take more pictures of my kids.  Be happier with life.  Be more organized, but I will not tell myself I HAVE to do these things because of some silly "new years resolution" I should do these things because they are important,  simple as that!