I love living out here.....

in the middle of no where.  It is so quiet and peaceful.  Me and my dog Cali took a walk today, 40 mins.  and it was just gorgeous out.  We ended up down by the lake...it was so pretty to see it all frozen over!

Ear Infections.....

I do not have much experience with these.....even with 3 kids....Raianna has had one...when she was probably 5 or 6 months old....never had one since....Elyse had her very first (double ear infection at that) just a couple of years ago.  I think that was due to swimming and water got trapped in her ears.   Helena has never had one before....until maybe now?  She woke us up at 4:30am screaming bloody murder that her ear hurt...so I took her to my room and held her and gave her tylenol where after about 15mins she calmed down, tylenol kicked in I guess....and she fell asleep and is still fast asleep in my bed.  I will call the dr at 8am and see if I can get her in to get checked out.  Poor little Miss.

I think people...

Forget how lonely it can be to be a stay at home mom.  Imagine yourself.....home alone, doing the same things day in and day out....all the kids are at school, everyone you know either is working or has something else to do, having little kids at home to keep them busy or other friends they spend their time with. (Not that I know too many people to hang out with around here.) Then there is you, sitting home wondering what happened.   Wondering if being home anymore is worth it.  For me, I feel like I haven't another choice.  With the dogs and the goats and the chickens, and the animals we plan to get in the future.  On top of cooking and cleaning and laundry and making sure the kids get up for school, and get their homework done, and not having to worry about scrambling your way out of work to go get your kid from school if they happen to get sick.  For me going back to work would just put added stress onto my shoulders, seeing as I do at least 80% if not more of the work around the house.  Not by choice, but out of necessity,  with a husband who has physical limitations on what he can and cannot do, the brunt work falls to me.  Him and the kids help as much as they can, but between his work and their school and budding social lives, it all gets a little hectic for me.  I do not think my sanity could hold out long if I added a job to the mix, having to do that and come home and still do 80% or more of the household stuff, trying to plan that out around their schedules to boot. It gets lonely though, and depressing, feeling unappreciated most days.  It gets to me sometimes and I loose my cool, I get so wound tight that it comes off in a ball of fury, lashing out and everyone and anything!  Saying things I regret and really do not mean, but having so much pent up stress and tension it just flows out like verbal diarrhea.  I wish I had a better outlet, something to drown out the mundane life of a stay at home mom.

A couple new siggies I have made

I have made a few siggies recently of my girls.

A New Year

A not so new me?    Still the same person I was last year, don't think that is every going to change.  I do not make resolutions, because to me it is just setting yourself up for failure.  There are things that I do want to do, like take more pictures of my kids.  Be happier with life.  Be more organized, but I will not tell myself I HAVE to do these things because of some silly "new years resolution" I should do these things because they are important,  simple as that!

update....

Well its been a while here is a little update. We had a very hectic holiday, 21 hour drive to VA on the 16th, we left at 7pm arrived at 3pm on the 17th. We stayed there for a few days, Frankie arrived on the 23rd, and we left the very next morning at 4am for an 8 hour drive up to Mass. Where we spent Christmas with Great grandma and the rest of the family. On the 27th we drove back down another 8 hours to VA. We had Frankie until the 29th. Everyone was very sad to see her go. We miss her so much! We stayed in VA and just hung out with Karl's brother and his wife and their kids. We finally headed back home the night of the 6th at 8pm we arrived back home the 7th around 4pmish.

Black Friday Sale!

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