We have hit that stage....

You know the one that your little girl is all grown up?   Yeah that one.  She is 12....my baby....she has a "boyfriend" I asked her what that means to her...she said, someone you like, someone who is smart and funny and who she likes to hang out with and talk to.   Ohh and he plays hockey, apparently to her that is a bonus LOL.   I am still trying to wrap my head around this one though, when did my daughter get old enough to really like boys?   This.is.not.cool.  Not that I am discouraging her, I do not want that, I want her to be open and honest with me about things and feel comfortable talking to me about boys, and *gasp* other things like KISSING BOYS....she has not yet done that, thank goodness.....and yes I believe her when she said she hasn't, kinda hints at her not lying when the first thing that comes out of her mouth is "eww that is gross, kissing a boy" haha at least I still have that for a little while longer!  I am not sure how long that one will last though...our next talk will be about sex,  UGH!  We have talked about it a little bit....but I think its about time to dive right on in....le sigh.....I am too young for this!

Let it snow let it snow...

let it snow?  Ohh and snow it did!!  I was really getting used to this really mild, very little snow winter...knew it had to come to an end sooner or later....We got dumped on last night....about 4-6 inches...some places is deeper than others with the drifts.   Ohh joy...how I do not love snow....at least it is pretty to look at....not so pretty spending 2 hours shoveling...but that was my own decision...figured that is how I would do my work out today...2 hours of snow shoveling is like 8 hours on the elliptical!  I'll take it!!

I love living out here.....

in the middle of no where.  It is so quiet and peaceful.  Me and my dog Cali took a walk today, 40 mins.  and it was just gorgeous out.  We ended up down by the lake...it was so pretty to see it all frozen over!

Ear Infections.....

I do not have much experience with these.....even with 3 kids....Raianna has had one...when she was probably 5 or 6 months old....never had one since....Elyse had her very first (double ear infection at that) just a couple of years ago.  I think that was due to swimming and water got trapped in her ears.   Helena has never had one before....until maybe now?  She woke us up at 4:30am screaming bloody murder that her ear hurt...so I took her to my room and held her and gave her tylenol where after about 15mins she calmed down, tylenol kicked in I guess....and she fell asleep and is still fast asleep in my bed.  I will call the dr at 8am and see if I can get her in to get checked out.  Poor little Miss.

I think people...

Forget how lonely it can be to be a stay at home mom.  Imagine yourself.....home alone, doing the same things day in and day out....all the kids are at school, everyone you know either is working or has something else to do, having little kids at home to keep them busy or other friends they spend their time with. (Not that I know too many people to hang out with around here.) Then there is you, sitting home wondering what happened.   Wondering if being home anymore is worth it.  For me, I feel like I haven't another choice.  With the dogs and the goats and the chickens, and the animals we plan to get in the future.  On top of cooking and cleaning and laundry and making sure the kids get up for school, and get their homework done, and not having to worry about scrambling your way out of work to go get your kid from school if they happen to get sick.  For me going back to work would just put added stress onto my shoulders, seeing as I do at least 80% if not more of the work around the house.  Not by choice, but out of necessity,  with a husband who has physical limitations on what he can and cannot do, the brunt work falls to me.  Him and the kids help as much as they can, but between his work and their school and budding social lives, it all gets a little hectic for me.  I do not think my sanity could hold out long if I added a job to the mix, having to do that and come home and still do 80% or more of the household stuff, trying to plan that out around their schedules to boot. It gets lonely though, and depressing, feeling unappreciated most days.  It gets to me sometimes and I loose my cool, I get so wound tight that it comes off in a ball of fury, lashing out and everyone and anything!  Saying things I regret and really do not mean, but having so much pent up stress and tension it just flows out like verbal diarrhea.  I wish I had a better outlet, something to drown out the mundane life of a stay at home mom.

A couple new siggies I have made

I have made a few siggies recently of my girls.

A New Year

A not so new me?    Still the same person I was last year, don't think that is every going to change.  I do not make resolutions, because to me it is just setting yourself up for failure.  There are things that I do want to do, like take more pictures of my kids.  Be happier with life.  Be more organized, but I will not tell myself I HAVE to do these things because of some silly "new years resolution" I should do these things because they are important,  simple as that!